The ideal women

For every women there is an ideal women God sees.  The women she could be, if God were to 100% have control of her life.  I yearn to be the women God wants and yet do I really give him total control so I could be that ideal women?  How often I base my idealism on what I think God wants or what I see on the outside of others.  Even when I see the behavior and actions of others, I still think that might be the ideal God wants of me.  God, thankfully, sees right through to the heart. He doesn't expect me to be more than what he sees; why then do I feel that I must jump through hoops and climb mountains to please him?  For every women there is an ideal women; God wants to help me become my ideal that he has in mind simply and only for me.