In my quest to
understand God, I would have never thought it would take me into the presence
of angels. One often asks questions that
cannot be answered even by God since we communicate on such a different level
of understanding. In my quest to understand
why God uses things in life to draw me closer to him, I would have never
thought he would have used earthly angels.
I am honored to have held two in my lifetime; my son and Ethan.
About a year ago I met Ethan although he wasn’t born
yet. I began praying for the journey
that Britany, James and Ethan would embark upon. 22 years ago we were in that
same journey and what an honor and privilege to be able to many years later, n
walk along side and share in the angel among us.
Proverbs 3:5: “
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” It’s
hard to trust in the Lord with all your heart, when your heart is heavy but God
doesn’t give us parameters as to when to trust, he simply says “trust”. We try to figure things out; we try to
understand but it’s like looking at an economy car and thinking you are seeing
a limo. Our understanding can’t begin to glimpse the insight of God.
So how does one not lean on what we know;
our understanding? By trusting, by walking, by living, by loving where God has
placed us and with what God has given us to trust with. For you, Britany and James, that part of
trusting was with an angel named Ethan.
Understand; you had no clue what lay before you a year ago. Trust; you walked on anticipating that God
would help you put each foot in front of the other. You trusted that God would give the wisdom to
understand how to love a baby with special needs and with limited time to love. God allowed you the honor of holding and
loving an angel. Right now you are
missing that angel; even with the challenges and uncertainty that come with
angels, you have empty arms and broken hearts.
The
path God has led you down this past year has altered your future. Britany, you
will always be Ethan’s mother and James you will always be Ethan’s dad. How you
choose to share that down the road will come with God’s leading. In time people will ask you, “do you have any
children?” and in time you will be able to say, “Yes, we have an angel”. That will open up the chance for you to
witness how incredibly God led you to “trust” in Him. Until that time comes
when your heart is ready to include those words, trust in the Lord with all your
heart. Lean on the strength He has
sustained you with this past year.
Giggle about the fun times, look at the pictures, have a birthday cake,
marvel over the angel God allowed you to hold in your arms, treasure in your
heard and the angel that made you a family.
“Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean
not on your own understanding.” Thank
you for your witness, your adventure and how God was honored every step of the
way. Ethan got the best life possible on
earth and now has eternal life in heaven. I can’t wait to see how in 20 years
God is using you to walk along side someone else through their time of
“trusting”.
